What’s it all about?
And by all, I mean me and this blog
If you’ve been reading my blog at all, dear Reader, you’ve figured out that I am pretty much all randomness, all the time. The fact that my “About” page has been under constructions since, well, blog construction began is another clue that I haven’t quite got it all together let alone come up with a cohesive theme for this here blog.
So how do I answer “What’s it all about?” In the words of the great Tynisha Leon of Dasheen Magazine, “I am what I am and I is what I is…and I be makin’ it do what it do.” Okay, so I don’t know if this is really a direct quote but as she’s sitting across the table at the mo’ and I told her what I was having her say, I think it’s alright.
This journey started with the words of another great:
“When you examine the lives of the most influential people who have ever walked among us, you discover one thread that winds through them all. They have been aligned first with their spiritual nature and only then with their physical selves.” -Albert Einstein
Now, am I under the delusion that I am in any fashion one of the most influential people? Not so much. I can’t even be sure that I aim to be influential and even if I did I couldn’t see myself blogging about becoming such a person. No, this is more about the second half of good ole Albert’s statement; attaining alignment. (I’ll preface all this with the acknowledgment of my liberal interpretation of said quote.)
Okay, prepare yourself for a convoluted “stream of life” reference…
For the great majority of my life I’ve simply coasted, permitting the current to pull me along, with little effort to paddle this way or steer that way let alone shift my course entirely. At some point, that only therapy could probably reveal, I just stopped caring. Always waiting, letting the winds and currents carry me. The problem with this method is that eventually you will find yourself barreling towards a waterfall that you can’t avoid since the current you allowed to control you now binds you to its will.
Recently, as I floated along, it occurred to me that it was in my power to stand in the shallow depth. The current silently slid around and past me… and I suddenly found myself holding control over my direction. The mountains I used to simply watch pass by, I could now climb. The forks in the river, I could now choose my direction. And the normalcy of the path that I’d been on for so long, well, it didn’t have to be mine.
It wasn’t until I chose to stand that I realized that I do care and it also became quite clear that there are many misalignments in my life. Taking a step off that well worn path it started to make sense why I wasn’t getting to where I wanted to be… I didn’t know where I wanted to go!
“Potential means-you ain’t doing nothing now” -Michelle Ventore
So I’ve been sitting on a bridge straddling the rushing stream below, with new perspective and thinking, dreaming, designing, scheming, praying… caring. Like the gears of a bank vault lock, I feel things clicking into place. The more ideas I get excited about, the more uncomfortable I become in the areas of my life where I’m out of alignment, and more determined to eliminate the forced square pegs in round holes of my life.
Something I can’t deny now…I’m a writer. I’ve always been a writer in some form or another. I have “books” that I wrote with full illustrations in crayon. My hard drive is full of starts of this story and ends of that story. I have stacks and stacks of loose leaf scratchings and spiral notebooks filled front to back in nearly illegible handwriting. I hid the writer for a long time because, well, what good is a writer? It wasn’t going to get me anywhere. Now, my “useful” degree, a B.S. in Psychology, hangs in my office in it’s $10 WalMart frame and I’m still paying for it.
This is where the blog enters the story, as a vessel for all these years of pent up writing energy.
I pulled the name One Thread That Winds from Al’s quote. I love the name on it’s own but, honestly, I thought I’d come up with a truly original knitting blog name… this is when you remind me that you haven’t seen a single knitting themed post on this blog… ever. Oh well, I still like the name even though it’s a total pain to tell someone the name instead of just send them a link.
The conversations go like this:
Me: Check out my blog or die.
Them: Okay, what is it?
Them: hmmmm… it’s not working, tell me again
Me: One Thread That Winds DOT com
Them: erm…. still not working… okay, so I have W-O-N
Me: No, no, no… O-N-E…
Okay, that’s enough, you get the picture… it’s a pain. Luckily, I’m not one to get rid of the annoying things in my life and, well, I paid for the URL for however long so it is what it is.
So, have I answered “What’s it all about?” Am I ready to fill up my “About” page… not really. I’m trying to get it together, Reader. I promise you this… I’ll be working it out, slowly but surely.